Wednesday, May 9, 2012
Wednesday May 9th 2012
so todays the day! D: Today after school i have to sit in a car for like 18 hours and then i get to drive by myself for another hour and a half tomorrow >_> so much fun having your license right? hahaha WRONG. lol just kidding.... i actually love having my license but it kinda sucks that I have to run errands for my parents all the time... it kinda seems like thats the only time i really get to use one of the cars.. or if im applying for a job or something >_> which reminds me since i have so much free time in second block today i should probably work on filling out some job apps..... so now i go to do that... im sure ill post again later cus as i said... i have an 18 hour car ride ahead of me with nothing to do sooo yeah..
Tuesday, May 8, 2012
Tuesday May 8 2012
Tuesday May 8th 2012... Today is a questionable day. Meaning that I have no idea what emotions i should be portraying.. Its the day before i leave for Wisconsin, so happy and yet sad because of course I am going to miss my friends whom are here in South Carolina but i'm only going to be gone for five days, where as I have been MIA in WI for about a year >_> Also today hasnt started out to be the greatest.... As I suspected I caught a certain "friend" of mine in a lie... yet again. I'm getting so fed up with all his incessant lying! I truly do not understand the need to cause drama. Its high school, theres already enough drama without you causing more!!! GRRR
On a related subject it is my friend Momo's birthday today, her and I were texting for a good portion of the morning, granted she is an hour behind me but still.. i miss her! shes so random yet totally awesome..
So today i have to get alot done >_> I have to clean the entire effing kitchen, make sure all of my stuff is packed and ready to be loaded into my moms car, edit and print off the list of pictures that i have to take for my cousins wedding, i have to clean my room yet again and my bathroom and also try to get to bed early so i can get alot of sleep so i can be alert enough to drive tomorrow night and thursday morning and i think i have to clean my moms car tonight too.... cool.. and i would liek to scrounge up some cash but unfortuneatly i dont think that one is going to happen >_> urgghhh all this stress is giving me a stomach ache T_T and to top it off i have have a test tomorrow in algebra...
okay lets try and focus on the lighter side of things...ummmmm the sun'll come out...tomorrow? idfk all i can currently focus on is how much i have to get done tongith and how much i have to do this weekend and BLARGHESHNARGL! -insert random unrelated side note... flux compasitors...whats up with those things??....end random side note-
But uhh yeah I'm lke super totaly excited to go see my friends and family that i have left :3 Im gonna go to my old school on Thursday and see who actually still considers themselves to be my friend and then i will prove to them that they are wrong because i have not heard from them in like forever >_> nahhh i wont be that mean but i will be like HEY! WTF i miss yoooouuuuuuu...
okay i shall admit that today's post in quite boring but as you can tell from what i have said above... IM BUSY AND STRESSED AND GAHHHH!!!! .....i should make a vlog.... and start jogging.....pffftttt im not gonna start jogging!
its 10:52 am and i still have half an hour in second block.... with nothing to do... maybe ill start on my math review? idk.... im bored.... im sure ill end up posting again later...well maybe.... it depends....on alot... so mehh....
my hair smells awesome........just saying..... OH! totally not trying to be like BUY THIS -insert S word- or sound like a commercial but do you have a dry scalp? dandruff? itchy scalp? like the smell of peppermint? Then you should totally buy john frieda's root awakening shampoo... its amazing!!! it makes my scalp feel sooooooo good and of course it smells amazing but then again i like anything and everything related to peppermint sooo yeahh and it has eucalyptus in it :3
blahhh okay so this is gonna be about money now... I did a small mock up about how much all my bills would be if i moved out right after graduation and without rent its like $995.00 >_> granted i'll be (hopefully) making about 2 grand a month but still!! thats outrageous!! although thats with everything that my parents told me about which i am doing alot of things differently so ima post a different price estimate later...
gonna go do that stuff.. love y'all!!!
On a related subject it is my friend Momo's birthday today, her and I were texting for a good portion of the morning, granted she is an hour behind me but still.. i miss her! shes so random yet totally awesome..
So today i have to get alot done >_> I have to clean the entire effing kitchen, make sure all of my stuff is packed and ready to be loaded into my moms car, edit and print off the list of pictures that i have to take for my cousins wedding, i have to clean my room yet again and my bathroom and also try to get to bed early so i can get alot of sleep so i can be alert enough to drive tomorrow night and thursday morning and i think i have to clean my moms car tonight too.... cool.. and i would liek to scrounge up some cash but unfortuneatly i dont think that one is going to happen >_> urgghhh all this stress is giving me a stomach ache T_T and to top it off i have have a test tomorrow in algebra...
okay lets try and focus on the lighter side of things...ummmmm the sun'll come out...tomorrow? idfk all i can currently focus on is how much i have to get done tongith and how much i have to do this weekend and BLARGHESHNARGL! -insert random unrelated side note... flux compasitors...whats up with those things??....end random side note-
But uhh yeah I'm lke super totaly excited to go see my friends and family that i have left :3 Im gonna go to my old school on Thursday and see who actually still considers themselves to be my friend and then i will prove to them that they are wrong because i have not heard from them in like forever >_> nahhh i wont be that mean but i will be like HEY! WTF i miss yoooouuuuuuu...
okay i shall admit that today's post in quite boring but as you can tell from what i have said above... IM BUSY AND STRESSED AND GAHHHH!!!! .....i should make a vlog.... and start jogging.....pffftttt im not gonna start jogging!
its 10:52 am and i still have half an hour in second block.... with nothing to do... maybe ill start on my math review? idk.... im bored.... im sure ill end up posting again later...well maybe.... it depends....on alot... so mehh....
my hair smells awesome........just saying..... OH! totally not trying to be like BUY THIS -insert S word- or sound like a commercial but do you have a dry scalp? dandruff? itchy scalp? like the smell of peppermint? Then you should totally buy john frieda's root awakening shampoo... its amazing!!! it makes my scalp feel sooooooo good and of course it smells amazing but then again i like anything and everything related to peppermint sooo yeahh and it has eucalyptus in it :3
blahhh okay so this is gonna be about money now... I did a small mock up about how much all my bills would be if i moved out right after graduation and without rent its like $995.00 >_> granted i'll be (hopefully) making about 2 grand a month but still!! thats outrageous!! although thats with everything that my parents told me about which i am doing alot of things differently so ima post a different price estimate later...
gonna go do that stuff.. love y'all!!!
monday may 07 2012
All i am going to start out by saying is that it is Monday... Anyone that has ever had to go to school and/or work understands why Mondays suck. Needless to say, i did not want to get up this morning. I went to sleep last night with a migraine which i now realize is actually just my severe homesickness manifesting itself into an ailment. Regardless i feel slightly better today.. not too much better...but slightly...
BLARGH okay so i seriously did not want to get out of bed this morning. i dont know why but i have been incredibly tired lately and i cant shake it off Dx I hope that i can catch up on my sleep before wednesday when i will be stuck in a car for between 17 and 18 hours T_T and I will have to drive for a good portion of it im sure. Not that i mind at all. I actually really like driving at night, especially through the mountains, its like pitch black and scary but totally awesome. That and the end result is so much better. I should explain... This Wednesday after school, my parents are picking me up and we will be headed on the long journey back to Wisconsin for my cousin Kati's wedding, in which I am the photographer. AND AND AND I GET TO SEE MY FRIENDS WHOM OF WHICH I CONSIDER MY FAMILY WHOM ALSO OF WHICH I LOVE AND MISS VERY VERY VERY VERY MUCH!!!!! O_O
teeeeheeee soo much caps lock... but yeah... can you tell im super excited to go see my friends?! it really sucks having to get up and leave all your friends that you have grown incredibly close to and then not be able to see them for a year. Although im fairly certain that when i do get up there and see everyone its going to be just as hard to leave again T_T especially since we are only staying for a few days. Regardless I am determined to have a good time and see all of my friends, regardless if there are people telling me not to. And yes most of the people that read this blog know that I am talking about Parker, I love parker more than anyone ould ever possibly understand and I would never want to do anything that would monopolize our relationship but I AM going to see my friends, because they are incredibly important to me. And yes maybe the things that could happen are construed as cheating behaviours, but that does NOT mean that I am going to let them happen. I feel like a douchebag for saying that but it had to be said. I love parker so so so so much and nothing will ever change that, but i need my freedom and trust. The time is now 11:18 and 2nd block is nearly over, I am about to see parker and go to algebra, Ill continue writting during lunch.
Okay its lunch and now im back to type... today thus far is not going too fantastically.... it seems that everybody is in a pissed off mood and i dont have the patience to deal with it all today. Im tired, moody, my stomach hurts and im beyond ready to go home and pass out. but no, i cant do that because i have other stupid crap to do. which reminds me i have to give my dog a haircut tonight -_-'
the time is now 1:08, im about to return to algebra and then beat my head into a wall repeatedly....I am starting to type again at 2:06 and im like fuming mad... all this stress is giving me a migraine again.
okay so this was suppose to be posted yesterday but i had a migraine and passed out for the remander of the night last night sooo yeahhh
BLARGH okay so i seriously did not want to get out of bed this morning. i dont know why but i have been incredibly tired lately and i cant shake it off Dx I hope that i can catch up on my sleep before wednesday when i will be stuck in a car for between 17 and 18 hours T_T and I will have to drive for a good portion of it im sure. Not that i mind at all. I actually really like driving at night, especially through the mountains, its like pitch black and scary but totally awesome. That and the end result is so much better. I should explain... This Wednesday after school, my parents are picking me up and we will be headed on the long journey back to Wisconsin for my cousin Kati's wedding, in which I am the photographer. AND AND AND I GET TO SEE MY FRIENDS WHOM OF WHICH I CONSIDER MY FAMILY WHOM ALSO OF WHICH I LOVE AND MISS VERY VERY VERY VERY MUCH!!!!! O_O
teeeeheeee soo much caps lock... but yeah... can you tell im super excited to go see my friends?! it really sucks having to get up and leave all your friends that you have grown incredibly close to and then not be able to see them for a year. Although im fairly certain that when i do get up there and see everyone its going to be just as hard to leave again T_T especially since we are only staying for a few days. Regardless I am determined to have a good time and see all of my friends, regardless if there are people telling me not to. And yes most of the people that read this blog know that I am talking about Parker, I love parker more than anyone ould ever possibly understand and I would never want to do anything that would monopolize our relationship but I AM going to see my friends, because they are incredibly important to me. And yes maybe the things that could happen are construed as cheating behaviours, but that does NOT mean that I am going to let them happen. I feel like a douchebag for saying that but it had to be said. I love parker so so so so much and nothing will ever change that, but i need my freedom and trust. The time is now 11:18 and 2nd block is nearly over, I am about to see parker and go to algebra, Ill continue writting during lunch.
Okay its lunch and now im back to type... today thus far is not going too fantastically.... it seems that everybody is in a pissed off mood and i dont have the patience to deal with it all today. Im tired, moody, my stomach hurts and im beyond ready to go home and pass out. but no, i cant do that because i have other stupid crap to do. which reminds me i have to give my dog a haircut tonight -_-'
the time is now 1:08, im about to return to algebra and then beat my head into a wall repeatedly....I am starting to type again at 2:06 and im like fuming mad... all this stress is giving me a migraine again.
okay so this was suppose to be posted yesterday but i had a migraine and passed out for the remander of the night last night sooo yeahhh
Friday, May 4, 2012
RANT RANT RANT CUS I CAN!! O__O
Okay so heres the deal.... This post is simply me ranting about anythign and everything that comes to mind and im sorry if you dont like what i have to say or if something is about you I apologize but if you don't like what i have to say than dont read my blog!!
hmmm what to start with? I suppose ill start with my pain.
Okay so for like the past two/three weeks my back has been killing me, my right knee and hip have been in seering pain for the past month or more and the two different anti-inflammatories that my doctor put me on arent helping one bit. Also Im suppose to start PT for my knee and hip soon but as far as I know they havent called my mom to set up an appointment. And yes my mom does still make all my appointments and that for me, I'm only 17 which in SC is considered being an adult but i dont necesarily have time to do all of that stuff right now and also concerning doctors i cant really be the primary contact until im 18 (which is in October ^_^). Anyways that hasnt happened yet, my back has been tingling and popping and everything else that hurts and no matter how much my chiropractor, massage therapist or even my fiance tries to massage it out or loosen it up or anything like that im still in alot of pain that just wont seem to go away. I sometimes hate the fact that im 17, because to people over 25 im still a kid and i dont know what pain is and im just growing and blah blah blah and yeah know what? SCREW YOU!! JUST BECAUSE IM YOUNGER DOES NOT MEAN I DONT KNOW WHAT PAIN IS!!!!! It has been proven by many doctors that any pain or illness that i endure is made worse by my depression and anxiety, not to mention the fact that i have been physically harassed and hazed in my past and the injuries i sustained from those events cause me daily pain that hurts to the point of tears. I can barely lay down in bed without being in pain.
-insert scream here- uuuuggggghhhh being able to rant is making me hyper but i feel sooooo much better already and im not even part of the way done yet.
Next subject.... people
Concerning Exes... Im going to do my best to keep this one short because i know Parker doesnt like when i talk about my exes, but i have have HAVE to get this stuff out otherwise im not going to feel better, so no promises on the length. Okay so I think i'll talk about the worst of my exes first.
Chris....I cant really say what I or my mom, or a few other people that are dearly close to me call him but its something along the lines of A-hole.... thats probably the nicest. To keep a VERY long story short-ish, We met online and talked for about 4 months before we met in person and then when we did, we hit it off instantly, oh...before i say more i need to say this. He was a freshman in college and i was a freshman in high school... maybe that was an indicator about how that relationship wouldve gone that i didnt even notice.. anyways there was 2 years, 6 months and 2 years of an age difference between us but we didnt let that phase us, we bonded right away and everything was great... so i thought. It turns out when I though things were going great, he was going behind my back and cheating on me.... this went on for at least two months... that I know of... after i found out i broke it off and i became severely depressed and almost suicidal. i wouldnt eat, i could barely sleep, basically, i was bella in new moon when edward left her.. However he crawled back and apologized too many times to count and like an idiot i gave him another chance, and I got burned yet again. After leaving out ALOT of details, this story doesnt seem to dramatic or devistating but to me it is, and it is a big factor as to why i am who i am.
In all honesty i think that was my worst break up... granted i have had other boyfriends and out of the other 5, only two of them ended on bad terms... Darren, went insane and gained like 9238572830597092384 pounds and became a walking zit. The other ex of mine, Kurt, is that one ex that will not leave me alone!!!!! I have tried close to everything but calling the cops on him to get him to leave me alone, even if people say that they are dating me and tell him to leave me alone, yes, he will back off for like a month but then he will call me or text me again like nothing was wrong and its like dude, leave me the eff alone!!
Mlehhh okay sooo i have one more thing to rant about and then i shall be done with this rant installment.. Okay so Prom is suppose to be a time in a teenagers life where you spend all day getting ready, taking pictures, going out to dinner, and then dancing the night away having all kinds of fun right? Well my junior prom was anything but that.... Parker and I took a good portion of the day to go get lunch and then we went to my friend Brenda's house so her sister could do my hair for prom, after that we went home, got dressed, took pictures with the parents and then went to prom... Once arriving at prom we had some decent fun and ate some finger food, drank some lemonade and punch (which i later found out was spiked with ecstasy) and danced the best we knew how. Unfortunealty the DJ only played techno music the enitre time so there was no chance to slow dance at all.. and okay so i was sitting on the edge of parker's knees and he kissed me on the heek... like a peck! and this gu Mr Rawlings comes over and starts screaming at us and was like you do that outside and get in our own chair and blah blah blah, he was the only adminitrator that had an issue with it.. nd to make it worse he didnt say anything about the fact that there was a guy with his hand up a girls dress for most of the night. nice to be dicriminated against...
okay im done ranting for today :) love you all!!
hmmm what to start with? I suppose ill start with my pain.
Okay so for like the past two/three weeks my back has been killing me, my right knee and hip have been in seering pain for the past month or more and the two different anti-inflammatories that my doctor put me on arent helping one bit. Also Im suppose to start PT for my knee and hip soon but as far as I know they havent called my mom to set up an appointment. And yes my mom does still make all my appointments and that for me, I'm only 17 which in SC is considered being an adult but i dont necesarily have time to do all of that stuff right now and also concerning doctors i cant really be the primary contact until im 18 (which is in October ^_^). Anyways that hasnt happened yet, my back has been tingling and popping and everything else that hurts and no matter how much my chiropractor, massage therapist or even my fiance tries to massage it out or loosen it up or anything like that im still in alot of pain that just wont seem to go away. I sometimes hate the fact that im 17, because to people over 25 im still a kid and i dont know what pain is and im just growing and blah blah blah and yeah know what? SCREW YOU!! JUST BECAUSE IM YOUNGER DOES NOT MEAN I DONT KNOW WHAT PAIN IS!!!!! It has been proven by many doctors that any pain or illness that i endure is made worse by my depression and anxiety, not to mention the fact that i have been physically harassed and hazed in my past and the injuries i sustained from those events cause me daily pain that hurts to the point of tears. I can barely lay down in bed without being in pain.
-insert scream here- uuuuggggghhhh being able to rant is making me hyper but i feel sooooo much better already and im not even part of the way done yet.
Next subject.... people
Concerning Exes... Im going to do my best to keep this one short because i know Parker doesnt like when i talk about my exes, but i have have HAVE to get this stuff out otherwise im not going to feel better, so no promises on the length. Okay so I think i'll talk about the worst of my exes first.
Chris....I cant really say what I or my mom, or a few other people that are dearly close to me call him but its something along the lines of A-hole.... thats probably the nicest. To keep a VERY long story short-ish, We met online and talked for about 4 months before we met in person and then when we did, we hit it off instantly, oh...before i say more i need to say this. He was a freshman in college and i was a freshman in high school... maybe that was an indicator about how that relationship wouldve gone that i didnt even notice.. anyways there was 2 years, 6 months and 2 years of an age difference between us but we didnt let that phase us, we bonded right away and everything was great... so i thought. It turns out when I though things were going great, he was going behind my back and cheating on me.... this went on for at least two months... that I know of... after i found out i broke it off and i became severely depressed and almost suicidal. i wouldnt eat, i could barely sleep, basically, i was bella in new moon when edward left her.. However he crawled back and apologized too many times to count and like an idiot i gave him another chance, and I got burned yet again. After leaving out ALOT of details, this story doesnt seem to dramatic or devistating but to me it is, and it is a big factor as to why i am who i am.
In all honesty i think that was my worst break up... granted i have had other boyfriends and out of the other 5, only two of them ended on bad terms... Darren, went insane and gained like 9238572830597092384 pounds and became a walking zit. The other ex of mine, Kurt, is that one ex that will not leave me alone!!!!! I have tried close to everything but calling the cops on him to get him to leave me alone, even if people say that they are dating me and tell him to leave me alone, yes, he will back off for like a month but then he will call me or text me again like nothing was wrong and its like dude, leave me the eff alone!!
Mlehhh okay sooo i have one more thing to rant about and then i shall be done with this rant installment.. Okay so Prom is suppose to be a time in a teenagers life where you spend all day getting ready, taking pictures, going out to dinner, and then dancing the night away having all kinds of fun right? Well my junior prom was anything but that.... Parker and I took a good portion of the day to go get lunch and then we went to my friend Brenda's house so her sister could do my hair for prom, after that we went home, got dressed, took pictures with the parents and then went to prom... Once arriving at prom we had some decent fun and ate some finger food, drank some lemonade and punch (which i later found out was spiked with ecstasy) and danced the best we knew how. Unfortunealty the DJ only played techno music the enitre time so there was no chance to slow dance at all.. and okay so i was sitting on the edge of parker's knees and he kissed me on the heek... like a peck! and this gu Mr Rawlings comes over and starts screaming at us and was like you do that outside and get in our own chair and blah blah blah, he was the only adminitrator that had an issue with it.. nd to make it worse he didnt say anything about the fact that there was a guy with his hand up a girls dress for most of the night. nice to be dicriminated against...
okay im done ranting for today :) love you all!!
May 4, 2012
So I meant to post again yesterday.... I guess we can all see how well that worked out. Lol... Anywho I went to my doctors appointment and I still feel horrible. She used this thing on my back that she pulls back and releases it and it feels like a fat leprechaun is jumping on ya with a pogo stick. It did NOT help.... I'm still in a lot of pain, I'm really tired, and to top it off, this morning I woke up with the worst neck pain accompanied by a headache that won't go away. Gaaawwwwwwdddddd okay I'm done complaining... For now :p
On the brighter side today is Parker and I's one month anniversary :) I'm soooo excited that he gets to come over and spend the weekend with me before I go up to Wisconsin :) granted it won't be too much fun since O have to clean and pack for the trip but he offered to help and I think just being with him will make it go by faster and be so much more rewarding after we're done. Also in today's new (lol) my friend Keara had her baby this morning!!!! Owen Flaherty Lee was born at 1:06 am, he is absolutely beautiful just like his mom and dad. Granted I have never really talked to his dad (Eric) but still the three of them are all equally beautiful and make a wonderful family. They may not be the most "ideal" family since they are teen parents but as long as there is love between them, they form the best family possible.
As of now it is 9:47 am and I'm sitting in sociology for another like two minutes before I go to tech, where I have digital imaging and it's also where I get to see my baby :)
Mkay so its now 10:00 am and im in digital imaging and bored out of my freaking mind and yes, class did just start, but this is my easy A class, so i finish everything like the minute he gives it to us to work on so im never not bored in this class... at least i have my headphones and dropbox on my ipad so i can listen to music while im sitting here trying to figure out something constructive to do..
Maybe ill work on the wedding plans more... i'm sure theres still something that needs to be done... and just cus i can im gonna make sure that i put in my daily posts how many days are left until the wedding... today we are down to 1086 days :3
It seems so far away yet its coming sooooo fast, its like i just looked at the countdown thingy the other day and it said 1200 days >_>.... But you know what they say, time flies when youre having fun... hahahaha speaking of Parker, its 10:09 and right as i was just typing this Parker and Stephanie walked by and waved lol..
Okay so i finished my "work" and now im going to start ranting again.. Okay so before i started dating Parker <3 I was talking to this guy Julio that my friend Kandi tried to hook me up with...needless to say it didnt work out and it turns out that i definitely made the better choice. While talking to Kandi i found out somethings that Parker had been warning me about and now i know them to be completely true, i feel stupid for having doubted those thoughts but hey, I still got the better end of the deal, I found the love of my life and I am NEVER letting him go. It sounds absolutely horrid of me to think this but to each is own and like i said in my first post, im gonna say what i want to and if you dont like it too effing bad... anyways the way he is whoring around and if he catches something, i dont care how mean of me it is but im gonna laugh.... You cant just play someone, and then not expect them to not get upset about it and also not expect that person to not wish for you to catch some type of viral disease.
Okay im done.. I may make a rant blog post next cus i have alot to rant about that i want to write down and get everything out... okay i think im gonna do that for the rest of class which is about half an hour so ta ta my loves!! <3
On the brighter side today is Parker and I's one month anniversary :) I'm soooo excited that he gets to come over and spend the weekend with me before I go up to Wisconsin :) granted it won't be too much fun since O have to clean and pack for the trip but he offered to help and I think just being with him will make it go by faster and be so much more rewarding after we're done. Also in today's new (lol) my friend Keara had her baby this morning!!!! Owen Flaherty Lee was born at 1:06 am, he is absolutely beautiful just like his mom and dad. Granted I have never really talked to his dad (Eric) but still the three of them are all equally beautiful and make a wonderful family. They may not be the most "ideal" family since they are teen parents but as long as there is love between them, they form the best family possible.
As of now it is 9:47 am and I'm sitting in sociology for another like two minutes before I go to tech, where I have digital imaging and it's also where I get to see my baby :)
Mkay so its now 10:00 am and im in digital imaging and bored out of my freaking mind and yes, class did just start, but this is my easy A class, so i finish everything like the minute he gives it to us to work on so im never not bored in this class... at least i have my headphones and dropbox on my ipad so i can listen to music while im sitting here trying to figure out something constructive to do..
Maybe ill work on the wedding plans more... i'm sure theres still something that needs to be done... and just cus i can im gonna make sure that i put in my daily posts how many days are left until the wedding... today we are down to 1086 days :3
It seems so far away yet its coming sooooo fast, its like i just looked at the countdown thingy the other day and it said 1200 days >_>.... But you know what they say, time flies when youre having fun... hahahaha speaking of Parker, its 10:09 and right as i was just typing this Parker and Stephanie walked by and waved lol..
Okay so i finished my "work" and now im going to start ranting again.. Okay so before i started dating Parker <3 I was talking to this guy Julio that my friend Kandi tried to hook me up with...needless to say it didnt work out and it turns out that i definitely made the better choice. While talking to Kandi i found out somethings that Parker had been warning me about and now i know them to be completely true, i feel stupid for having doubted those thoughts but hey, I still got the better end of the deal, I found the love of my life and I am NEVER letting him go. It sounds absolutely horrid of me to think this but to each is own and like i said in my first post, im gonna say what i want to and if you dont like it too effing bad... anyways the way he is whoring around and if he catches something, i dont care how mean of me it is but im gonna laugh.... You cant just play someone, and then not expect them to not get upset about it and also not expect that person to not wish for you to catch some type of viral disease.
Okay im done.. I may make a rant blog post next cus i have alot to rant about that i want to write down and get everything out... okay i think im gonna do that for the rest of class which is about half an hour so ta ta my loves!! <3
Thursday, May 3, 2012
Okay do everybody is raving about this so I decided, what the hell why not make one... I'm not usually one to give in to peer pressure but then again I need an outlet for my thoughts and everything. Fair warning to anyone that reads this. This is my blog, I will post what i want and i will say what i want to say. if you dont like it then get lost. k?thnxbai :3
Anywho, today is Thursday May 3, 2012. I'm not really going to include my location because its subject to change every few hours... Today is a day where i am really tired even though i took my meds, which include adderall which is suppose to keep me awake but of course it doesnt work as well as i would like it to. my back is fricken killing me as it has been for the last like two weeks.... i was finally able to go to my chiropractor yesterday and she tried to work on it but if anything i am just more sore... I have to go back today after school and she is going to try some more, hopefully my massage therapist will be there today... and if i still dont feel better im going to have to have an xray and/or MRI or something to see if its a problem with my spine or if its just as muscle issue... doc seems to think that it is a pressure point that is having issues however, yes when she tried rubbing it out and that helped that one spot but the rest of me, where the problem really is still hurts like a mofo.. Im reeeeally hoping that my therapist is there today so i can have a massage and hopefully that will help some, if not i dont know what im going to do. I really dont want to have to sit in a car for 18 hours, take pictures at a wedding and everything else that may be going on if im in pain. that would defitnitely take away the fun...
okay so gearing away from my little sob story for the day.. Im super excited since tomorrow marks one month that my boyfriend and i have been dating! Im so happy, this is the first realtionship that i have ever been in that i feel will never end... and yes granted that we have only been dating for a month, I really, honestly and truly do love him will all my heart, soul and fiber of my being. There are MANY people that skeptisize this and i havent even told my parents yet, and i probably wont until i get the legit ring on my finger or when he asks my dad i dont know but, regardless of those things I do want to marry him. Yes its banned in South Carolina but i dont care, we can have a ceremony and reception here as if it were the real thing and then we can go out of state to sign a marriage license. Maybe we will go to california or something for our honeymoon and get one while we are there who knows! Regardless i love him so so sooooooo much and i think its funny but also maybe slightly sad that i already have a majority of the wedding planned out >_> Although i need to figure out a budget so i can figure out exactly what i can and cannot have or do yet but i have plenty of time, in fact i have 1087 days until our ideal wedding day!! I know its insane to get married right after high school, because i may be missing certain oppurtunities, or not exploring myself and the world by myself, that i would be tied down and blah blah blahhh but ya know what?! I DONT CARE!!!!!!! I love parker so much that i WANT to be "tied down" and i only want to explore myself and the world and everything with him, not by myself. I want to get out of high school and go from my parents house to living my own life with parker, living on our own, having our own house rules and doing whatever the F we want to do! Im so excited! O_O im like really hyper right now if you couldnt tell lol... It's just that whenever I talk about Parker and I living on our own and having a life that we control, not being pushed around or "guided" by our parents, my heart starts beating sooo fast that im slightly afraid that it will beat out of my chest and fly across the room! ....interesting visual huh??
On the subject of moving out and living on my own it makes me think about the fact that i DESPERATELY need money.. Im starting to have bills to pay and im still living at home and under 18!! im trying my hardest to get a job like everywhere but thus far no luck... I had an interview at Best Buy awhile ago and it went really good but they never answered the effing phone when i called to tell them one detail that was critically important, so due to their neglegance, i didnt get the job T_T Oh well, i wouldnt really be happy working there anyways, I dont know if anyone has noticed but Best Buy has a really weird smell... Anywho one of my friends just told me about a job oppurtunity that im going to apply for now.. so im sure that i will be posting again later since its only 10:45 AM and i ususally dont go to bed for another 12 hours xD...
I'll post later my loves!!
<3
Anywho, today is Thursday May 3, 2012. I'm not really going to include my location because its subject to change every few hours... Today is a day where i am really tired even though i took my meds, which include adderall which is suppose to keep me awake but of course it doesnt work as well as i would like it to. my back is fricken killing me as it has been for the last like two weeks.... i was finally able to go to my chiropractor yesterday and she tried to work on it but if anything i am just more sore... I have to go back today after school and she is going to try some more, hopefully my massage therapist will be there today... and if i still dont feel better im going to have to have an xray and/or MRI or something to see if its a problem with my spine or if its just as muscle issue... doc seems to think that it is a pressure point that is having issues however, yes when she tried rubbing it out and that helped that one spot but the rest of me, where the problem really is still hurts like a mofo.. Im reeeeally hoping that my therapist is there today so i can have a massage and hopefully that will help some, if not i dont know what im going to do. I really dont want to have to sit in a car for 18 hours, take pictures at a wedding and everything else that may be going on if im in pain. that would defitnitely take away the fun...
okay so gearing away from my little sob story for the day.. Im super excited since tomorrow marks one month that my boyfriend and i have been dating! Im so happy, this is the first realtionship that i have ever been in that i feel will never end... and yes granted that we have only been dating for a month, I really, honestly and truly do love him will all my heart, soul and fiber of my being. There are MANY people that skeptisize this and i havent even told my parents yet, and i probably wont until i get the legit ring on my finger or when he asks my dad i dont know but, regardless of those things I do want to marry him. Yes its banned in South Carolina but i dont care, we can have a ceremony and reception here as if it were the real thing and then we can go out of state to sign a marriage license. Maybe we will go to california or something for our honeymoon and get one while we are there who knows! Regardless i love him so so sooooooo much and i think its funny but also maybe slightly sad that i already have a majority of the wedding planned out >_> Although i need to figure out a budget so i can figure out exactly what i can and cannot have or do yet but i have plenty of time, in fact i have 1087 days until our ideal wedding day!! I know its insane to get married right after high school, because i may be missing certain oppurtunities, or not exploring myself and the world by myself, that i would be tied down and blah blah blahhh but ya know what?! I DONT CARE!!!!!!! I love parker so much that i WANT to be "tied down" and i only want to explore myself and the world and everything with him, not by myself. I want to get out of high school and go from my parents house to living my own life with parker, living on our own, having our own house rules and doing whatever the F we want to do! Im so excited! O_O im like really hyper right now if you couldnt tell lol... It's just that whenever I talk about Parker and I living on our own and having a life that we control, not being pushed around or "guided" by our parents, my heart starts beating sooo fast that im slightly afraid that it will beat out of my chest and fly across the room! ....interesting visual huh??
On the subject of moving out and living on my own it makes me think about the fact that i DESPERATELY need money.. Im starting to have bills to pay and im still living at home and under 18!! im trying my hardest to get a job like everywhere but thus far no luck... I had an interview at Best Buy awhile ago and it went really good but they never answered the effing phone when i called to tell them one detail that was critically important, so due to their neglegance, i didnt get the job T_T Oh well, i wouldnt really be happy working there anyways, I dont know if anyone has noticed but Best Buy has a really weird smell... Anywho one of my friends just told me about a job oppurtunity that im going to apply for now.. so im sure that i will be posting again later since its only 10:45 AM and i ususally dont go to bed for another 12 hours xD...
I'll post later my loves!!
<3
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