All i am going to start out by saying is that it is Monday... Anyone that has ever had to go to school and/or work understands why Mondays suck. Needless to say, i did not want to get up this morning. I went to sleep last night with a migraine which i now realize is actually just my severe homesickness manifesting itself into an ailment. Regardless i feel slightly better today.. not too much better...but slightly...
BLARGH okay so i seriously did not want to get out of bed this morning. i dont know why but i have been incredibly tired lately and i cant shake it off Dx I hope that i can catch up on my sleep before wednesday when i will be stuck in a car for between 17 and 18 hours T_T and I will have to drive for a good portion of it im sure. Not that i mind at all. I actually really like driving at night, especially through the mountains, its like pitch black and scary but totally awesome. That and the end result is so much better. I should explain... This Wednesday after school, my parents are picking me up and we will be headed on the long journey back to Wisconsin for my cousin Kati's wedding, in which I am the photographer. AND AND AND I GET TO SEE MY FRIENDS WHOM OF WHICH I CONSIDER MY FAMILY WHOM ALSO OF WHICH I LOVE AND MISS VERY VERY VERY VERY MUCH!!!!! O_O
teeeeheeee soo much caps lock... but yeah... can you tell im super excited to go see my friends?! it really sucks having to get up and leave all your friends that you have grown incredibly close to and then not be able to see them for a year. Although im fairly certain that when i do get up there and see everyone its going to be just as hard to leave again T_T especially since we are only staying for a few days. Regardless I am determined to have a good time and see all of my friends, regardless if there are people telling me not to. And yes most of the people that read this blog know that I am talking about Parker, I love parker more than anyone ould ever possibly understand and I would never want to do anything that would monopolize our relationship but I AM going to see my friends, because they are incredibly important to me. And yes maybe the things that could happen are construed as cheating behaviours, but that does NOT mean that I am going to let them happen. I feel like a douchebag for saying that but it had to be said. I love parker so so so so much and nothing will ever change that, but i need my freedom and trust. The time is now 11:18 and 2nd block is nearly over, I am about to see parker and go to algebra, Ill continue writting during lunch.
Okay its lunch and now im back to type... today thus far is not going too fantastically.... it seems that everybody is in a pissed off mood and i dont have the patience to deal with it all today. Im tired, moody, my stomach hurts and im beyond ready to go home and pass out. but no, i cant do that because i have other stupid crap to do. which reminds me i have to give my dog a haircut tonight -_-'
the time is now 1:08, im about to return to algebra and then beat my head into a wall repeatedly....I am starting to type again at 2:06 and im like fuming mad... all this stress is giving me a migraine again.
okay so this was suppose to be posted yesterday but i had a migraine and passed out for the remander of the night last night sooo yeahhh
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