Okay do everybody is raving about this so I decided, what the hell why not make one... I'm not usually one to give in to peer pressure but then again I need an outlet for my thoughts and everything. Fair warning to anyone that reads this. This is my blog, I will post what i want and i will say what i want to say. if you dont like it then get lost. k?thnxbai :3

Anywho, today is Thursday May 3, 2012. I'm not really going to include my location because its subject to change every few hours... Today is a day where i am really tired even though i took my meds, which include adderall which is suppose to keep me awake but of course it doesnt work as well as i would like it to. my back is fricken killing me as it has been for the last like two weeks.... i was finally able to go to my chiropractor yesterday and she tried to work on it but if anything i am just more sore... I have to go back today after school and she is going to try some more, hopefully my massage therapist will be there today... and if i still dont feel better im going to have to have an xray and/or MRI or something to see if its a problem with my spine or if its just as muscle issue... doc seems to think that it is a pressure point that is having issues however, yes when she tried rubbing it out and that helped that one spot but the rest of me, where the problem really is still hurts like a mofo.. Im reeeeally hoping that my therapist is there today so i can have a massage and hopefully that will help some, if not i dont know what im going to do. I really dont want to have to sit in a car for 18 hours, take pictures at a wedding and everything else that may be going on if im in pain. that would defitnitely take away the fun...

okay so gearing away from my little sob story for the day.. Im super excited since tomorrow marks one month that my boyfriend and i have been dating! Im so happy, this is the first realtionship that i have ever been in that i feel will never end... and yes granted that we have only been dating for a month, I really, honestly and truly do love him will all my heart, soul and fiber of my being. There are MANY people that skeptisize this and i havent even told my parents yet, and i probably wont until i get the legit ring on my finger or when he asks my dad i dont know but, regardless of those things I do want to marry him. Yes its banned in South Carolina but i dont care, we can have a ceremony and reception here as if it were the real thing and then we can go out of state to sign a marriage license. Maybe we will go to california or something for our honeymoon and get one while we are there who knows! Regardless i love him so so sooooooo much and i think its funny but also maybe slightly sad that i already have a majority of the wedding planned out >_> Although i need to figure out a budget so i can figure out exactly what i can and cannot have or do yet but i have plenty of time, in fact i have 1087 days until our ideal wedding day!! I know its insane to get married right after high school, because i may be missing certain oppurtunities, or not exploring myself and the world by myself, that i would be tied down and blah blah blahhh but ya know what?! I DONT CARE!!!!!!! I love parker so much that i WANT to be "tied down" and i only want to explore myself and the world and everything with him, not by myself. I want to get out of high school and go from my parents house to living my own life with parker, living on our own, having our own house rules and doing whatever the F we want to do! Im so excited! O_O im like really hyper right now if you couldnt tell lol... It's just that whenever I talk about Parker and I living on our own and having a life that we control, not being pushed around or "guided" by our parents, my heart starts beating sooo fast that im slightly afraid that it will beat out of my chest and fly across the room! ....interesting visual huh??

On the subject of moving out and living on my own it makes me think about the fact that i DESPERATELY need money.. Im starting to have bills to pay and im still living at home and under 18!! im trying my hardest to get a job like everywhere but thus far no luck... I had an interview at Best Buy awhile ago and it went really good but they never answered the effing phone when i called to tell them one detail that was critically important, so due to their neglegance, i didnt get the job T_T Oh well, i wouldnt really be happy working there anyways, I dont know if anyone has noticed but Best Buy has a really weird smell... Anywho one of my friends just told me about a job oppurtunity that im going to apply for now.. so im sure that i will be posting again later since its only 10:45 AM and i ususally dont go to bed for another 12 hours xD...

I'll post later my loves!!

<3